Temporary Injunction

Will stop posting until I am back from London. Leaving Newcastle this sunday morning, going to meet up with dustbin them.

Didnt really hv a life these few days, been busy busy busy all times.
I even break down few days ago. This trip just come at the right time. To get off my mental block.

Knew a girl recently, she is really good in photography and editing stuff. and she is friendly too. Became a fan of her pictures :) .. Made the places and stuff that she visits looks so nice.

Last night after I took my bathe, lie on my comfy bed and prepare to get a good sleep, suddenly thought of a replacement seminar on friday morning, OMG, and i completely forget abt it. End up staying up the whole night to finish it. And Fuck it, cancel this morning!! Argghhh.

I can't help it but recenly I keep on feeling tired and tend to get alot of nap. My hearts beat faster by day when I look at the calender. 7 weeks left to exam. haizz....

Yesterday 3310 find me to ask me whether I am alright.. felt so happy when she msn me. Coz she never really find talk to me first in msn before. Usually I am the one who start the conversation. Well, though conversation is short, but still I am happy.

Thats all for now, not really in a mood to think. Lots of stuff to be done yet.

Current me: recently in love with Nujabes's music (luv sic) part 2 and 3.

It is an old song around 1 or 2 years ago. Hip Hop. But still, it fits perfectly the atmosphere in my small cosy room.

London here I come!!!!

Determination+ Strength+ Persistence+ Hardwork = Performance

I can do better than this!!! An Achievement for promises made

No Space for failing-- Win with Glory or Die with Honour

Lets Do This

Happy Day

Woke up slightly late today, rush to law school to summit my subject choices for year 3. Then I slowly walk home, enjoying the sun shine through the journey, feels so warm and alive.( In malaysia I will never do that) :) . Cooked some pasta for lunch, and read up EU, tired and took a nap. When I woke up-- wallah--parcel arrived. Luckily my housemate sign it for me, coz i didnt notice the doorbell ringing. Here are some of the pictures.

This is the box, a 10kg box. Omg, whats inside? lets see

Its ALL ABOUT FOOD!!! hohohoho, looks like i can't escape from the coming rising kilograms d.haha.. Life is wonderful ... Thanks daddy and mommy, must have cost u alot to buy these stuffs and sent it here. Family are the best.

Well, not really in a mood to study much tonight, but still, will complete an essay before going into bed.

Just finish doing the CV, initially I didnt planned to summit anything because I am never interested in doing internship. Or it is better to say those things I really couldnt be bothered. I rather meet up customers together with my dad, doing packaging and even delivering job to help to cut down my parents burden even it is just for one or 2 months. Because I know, 1 day I will need to do it all alone too.

But still, during the process of writing one out, I found out that my past expenrience is just too shallow and wasn't even attractive enough for my own reading. Damn... Well, just give it a try then, I didnt score a good result in my first year, I guess that alone might had give the firms bad impression about it. But hey, I might be stupid and dumb, but I am always willing to learn things that I don't know once I have made up my mind.

Just hope things will go well.

A sudden point of thought, most of my friends always thought I have a simple and easy road even after I graduate, I know, my dad have a running company, and I will be taking over and etc etc etc ... But do you all know, it is really hard to maintain a company that is based on trading businesses? We import products and modified it/ repackaging and sell it. Without own product manufacturing, it is always a challenge if we cannot find any new business flow. I am always worried what will happen when I take over in a few years time. Or should I even take over at the first step? I know my capability and yes, I am not really good in having 'light bulb' thought on how to generate new business opportunity like my dad. What if...what if the company fails when I am incharge? I don't want to be listed as a son that had ruin his dad's company (bai ka cai)

For the past experience, I have been meeting up customers or suppliers together with my dad, and I am shocked for the first time when we meet up with a senior manager in Ipoh (engineering)

He asked us for details of our products and we (well, my dad) tries to give an illustration abt it and the advantages of it in terms of cost cutting, durability, simple usage, & etc. But in the end we got scold like nobody's business. (well, that asshole already have in mind some other suppliers to buy, so he screw us kao kao) . At that point of time I was thinking, WTF, my dad earns 5 times more than ur fucking salary and now we need to lay down our head and nodded when u scold us and talk something bad about our products. Yes you are a first class honour in engineering, and so what??

I know business get harder in times, I just hope I can pull it through few years later.

Of course, none of my friends knew that all the while (including my buddy as well) , well, I never blame ppl for that, coz it is common sense that on the surface, it sounds pretty easy to take over and run it and make profit. But behind the scene, life is often tougher than it is seem.

Is that all just thoughts generate from my mind becoz I hv low confidence in myself? Who knows?

Get going--Hmm, what should I do now......bathe bathe bathe..lalalala.. :)

Still, Happy day . Thanks to my family :) I love you guys.

A Point of Thought

Can't figure out why but today suddenly I have change in the perspective of looking into 'Love' It suddenly becomes a not so important element in my life anymore. I never doubt the happiness that is always attached together with Love but so far, I came to the conclusion that I enjoy being single as well. It feels----so great!!!

Of course, didnt wanna deny that I am on a crush towards a girl lately, but somehow I didnt put much hope on getting her as well. Might just take the process as a test on myself, thats all. Just like what my bro advise me, just give it a try, you got nothing to lose. True enough. :) I will try but of course, without the 'compulsory achiement' .

Today was a sunny day, been doing my land law(freeehold covenants) for the whole day--gosh!! so tough, never use so such a long time to complete it. Damn it!

Didnt cook today, coz me and my housemate are lazy to get our hands on the wok. So we decided to walk to a Chinese takeaway shop to order for some fried noodles and rice. Taste quite good. and cheap as well. Fried Rice- 1.5 pounds Fried Noodles- 2 pounds. haha.. I order one for each. and my housemate ordered 2 fried noodles.

Miss home today, dunno y, just like the feeling of going out yamcha with buddies and talk crap(pelita talk :). Havent done it for more than 6 months. So for Kho, and other friends back in Msia. Drink as much as u can before coming. U will miss it. I assure u. haha..Stupid UK--nothing but alcohol.

Last thing, my parcel is arriving tomorrow, omg, dunno what my mom insert inside the 10kg box for me. I am so excited!! ^^

Today emotion: Boring, didnt happen anything, dunno what to write for blog, but still I just wanna scribble something--so this is what u got.hahaha..Sorry, I am sorry.

Continue studying. Run Chris, plzzz Run!!! (1 month and 3 weeks more for exams and ur still halfway from the ending)

Library Saturday

Went to the Library to do some work today. Went there around 10am, nice weather, less people inside. Feel so great!! Sit down in a corner and start doing my stuff. Around 2.30pm, felt rather hungry, slowly walk home for lunch. Planned to sleep a while, and do another essay before 12am today.

I have already written down my subject choices for year 3, which we will need to hand up on monday before 5pm. I choose Jurisprudence(compulsory), Equity and trust( Compulsory), Employment law, International Human rights and Evidence. Must be a tough year in year 3. Gotta prepare for that. hehe

Nothing much happened lately, Just don't have the mood to go for sports, friends invite me for football, badminton. Usually i will say ok and attend it, but lately I don't really feel like sweating out. Guess I am really under stress and preassure abt the coming exams.

Brave myself to sms her last night, reply seems to be normal, but I am happy. ^^ Hope for more.

Bin hau and claudia went bristol today, must be having lots of fun. Oh man guys, I miss the chinese food there, and the buffet dinner we eat with Steve. It was awesome. Thinking of that alone makes me hungry.

Well, wont be writing much unless I really hv important stuff happening. As for classes, next week is already the last lecture for company, land and tort. EU will be going on revision lecture next week. Time is running out!!! :(

For all my friends who are going to take exams in 1 or 2 months time. I wish u all best of luck. Strieve harder and may all ur aims comes true.

Chris 21/3/2009 4.19pm nap time Craving In Night Dreaming of You

My Full Course Meal

Goal Set. I usually hate to set out targets publically because I always hv the feeling that I cant achieved it in the end. But now, better embarressed myself than saying sorry to my results.

Once I write it down, and I am gonna struggle for it !!

Land Law Breakfast-- First

European Union Law Lunch -- First

Law of Tort Lunch -- 2:1

Company Law Dinner -- 2:2

3310 as Dessert / supper

This is the full course meal that I wanted for my year 2. Well, the last one might be the toughest but still, like bin hau says: who knows... Although I myself look quite negatively towards the chances.

Feel so happy when she talk to me... Feel so sad when I heard there are competitors. Life goes on.

Shout

Have you ever feel like ur wanna shout out everything that is inside ur tiny little brain (some ppl keep it in heart) Up to u.. haha .. I did. I got the feeling like everything inside my brain everyday and it makes me feel --tight!! Heard abt Empty Minded? Yes, I am in the oppposite situation-- FULL minded, sorry abt that i couldnt find any word to replace that( I know there is but it is hard for me to think in the middle of 3am in the morning)

Just like the picture above, I really wanted to go places which are peaceful, high, and bless with natural beauty (especially cliffs, and shout my lungs out like nobody's business up there) Curses, dreams, aims, badass like 6meter (Would you stop asking me the same question everyday!!! ) ... and people who I think of.

I heard Scotland have the best view in United Kingdom, really planned to go there for a visit. Maybe this September before year 3 starts? Bin? Liang? Claud? wanna join? Come visit me together la :) by that time maybe Kho will be joining as well..haha..so happy when i thought abt that.

Planned to write abt the blog titled 'The Pretender' starring 6m. But too blogspot doesn't provide security lock for just specifically 1 blog..so, better keep it first until I find a way express it out.

Kinda tired today, I've been sleeping at 7am for the past 3 days (saturday, sunday, monday) and u know what, yesterday when I went to schl, i am shocked to see my reflection in the lift. ZOMG, it looks like a freak with seriously black eyes..ppl might thought maybe someone has punch me in the eye or something..haha.. and so , i start to get lots of rest from today onwards. Guess this vampire style doesn't really suit me, although i did manage to study. But I think my health cant really cope with it.

This is my lunch for 17/3

I saw Ikea selling 45p for each, Cardiff selling 3 pounds each. And so, I decided to buy a bottle of mustard, (chili sos from my mom) , and the bread. And hot dogs 1.25 pound for 10. I can eat until my stomach burst..hahaha.. The first one i simply squeese the mustard, the second one looks alot better. :)

Well, time to sleep d, I am really exhausted. Everyday I been thinking and wanted to talk to 'the one' more. But I just hv the feeling that it wasn't really a good idea. Well, screw it. Should listen to Claudia. 'Know ur priority' Other stuff put it aside. Will try although knowing that I am falling deeper in the hole each day.... Bless me..

Nites (sorry abt the spacing, i tried to do spacing when everytime i save and publish it will go back to the same thing, might be a problem or something)

Third Parties

Shocking title I supposed ..haha..Gotcha!!

Well, This is not about my relationship of course, rather define in terms of friendship.

What would u feel when u realised that ur only a third party in each group of friends?. (of course, not all groups).

I still remember the day when I came Newcastle alone. Was really nervous and scared coz I know nobody, nothing abt Newcastle, and i even can't understand the local accent including english accent as well. (well, i asked for directions and after the policeman explained to me for around...3 mins non stop talking. and i just smile and say--thank you thank you -and turn around and ask another lady.) Must be an insult to that guy. I am such a badass. Aiyah, ppl dun understand a word mah, what to do. :) [Appologize for my non structured non standable grammer and vocab, coz i just wanted to make it sound more natural]

Problems arrises when I am alone at the beginning, no groups, no partner. Seeing other people group up with their 'friends' makes me slightly envy. HELP ppl stick around together, Inti ppl stick around together, and other colleges. Even i am originally from HELP, but I know nobody in personal so yea...

But because of that, I force myself to mix up with all of them, end up I hv lots of friends from different group (almost every group). Better than those who still stick with their previous group till now. But the point is, I am never really 'IN' to their circle of activities. I mean, because ur just a so called 'hi bye' friend, u will never be included in their daily activities. True enough, I hv my own trusted buddies somewhere else in UK but I am pointing at the circle in Newcastle itself. They hv parties, feast, or etc etc, I am never really invited. I know, u guys sure thinks i am vain now for complaining for stuffs like these. Well in fact i am not, i am not even sad abt it, coz putting myself in their shoes, their action is 'justifiable' under the grounds of Proximity of relationship. haha..sry..too much EU law and tort d.

Realising the problem, still, I decided not to change. Coz i am happy with my current life. Noneed to waste extra money outside (really appreciate that Dad whenever i thought of spending ur hard earn money, I promised myself to pay you back at least 300k once i started to earn my own penny/ Ringgit). Thats a target line for my career life, so didnt wanna worry too much abt that now.

At least I have some good friends in Newcastle for now , well, Not really 100% close but at least I consider them as friends (wendy, janey, Asma, Angeline,Jie liang, winston) well, so far they are the only ones i can name out. At least i feel that they are really sincere in being friends. (certainly not 6meter , oh puhleasee..I would pay 100 pounds to get it KILLED) .Anyone? haha.

But still, Liang-- ur my best buddy here. Thanks for the support all the while. Mr dustbin u will go for Number 2(coz u always bully me) haha..but still..u guys are the best. and Soon chin as well, yea, although we didnt really talk much back in HELP, but hey, at least ur sincere in being my friend ^^

Of course, there are still some back in Malaysia (eg: Kho,meng), But lets not get the scope of the topic too far from UK. ^^

Current Me : getting on with my new life as a single man. Recovered 95% . Never thought it will be that fast. haha. and study study study. and (suddently i thought of another word-- and
'_ _ _ _ y ' ) yes, guessing the word game . haha.. But please dun try to leave any comment on this word thank you!!! and YES I am SERIOUS!.

Topsy turvy life these 2 days..I sleep in the morning, studying in the night (sleep at 5am or 6am everyday) =.=" not really healthy right? what to do, coz I slack whenever there is sunshine (I just dunno y) maybe my grandfather is a vampire or something.

Well, continue with my work. Tea breaks Over. GENTLEMEN, START YOUR ENGINE!!

Dinner 11/3/2009-- A slightly happy day.

Well, today seems to be an odd day because I feel happy for no apparent reason. Went to class as usual, came back, sleep, online, etc etc.

Since Mario is still somewhere in Paris, today's dinner is going to be alone as well, u know cooking alone is rather boring, u cant cook too much, nor too little. and today I decided to cook a nice meal for myself( well, not really nice to some ppl, but at least i like it) :) These are the pictures

Well what do you know? Mash Potatoes ^^ Mix with Onions, and Spring Onions

Followed up with Chicken gravy (bought from morrison)

And this my Rice on top of egg with vege omelette

This is my dinner tonight (and the rice)

Well, The mash potatoes turn out to be so tasty, i just love it .. although the eggs taste just normal.

Slightly tired, but still need to finish up my company law seminar. Booked my ticket back to Malaysia today. Oh my oh my, looking forward to go back my home sweet home. No place is better than my cosy little room and family members around me. Mom, dad, 2 brothers and sister, i miss u all. 3 more months and i am home ^^

Happeepill Show Episod 2

Found this very funny, hv a look at it ! :)

Busy Week :(

Woke up at 8.30am today, felt slightly tired even though I woke up naturally without relying my DOUBLE alarm 'phone' today.haha ..felt so proud..(thinking that -oh my, today must be a good day ). Get my teeth brushed, and cook a bowl of korean mee for breakfast + lunch (coz i will be having class from 12pm to 5pm today. After the breakfast, i print out my seminar work for the land law seminar today on 4pm. and thing started to get--slighly bad. I kep yawning and decided to get a few minutes nap. And the next thing i see is

11.35am!!!which is just 25 minutes to class and i need to get a bathe, dry up my hair,wear my clothes, pack my bag, style my hair (include spraying it), toilet, and a 12mins walk to school. WTF!!!

obviously, late for class d lor..what do u expect, superman meh? i cant just bump into a telephone booth and change right away..haha...So today i went to schl with messy hair, red face (coz running all the way).

rather a busy week, especially with 3 seminars going on. and i havent done my Company law and Tort seminar...Both on thursday--so screwed this time!!

Another topic

Bought my train ticket to LONDON on Sunday. Cost me around 47.8 pounds. Got scolded by daddy for travelling too much. He say : WHAT!!! Going London? But i thought u just came back from cardiff 2 weeks ago, Daddy's money hard to earn u know.. ahaha..well, what to do, I just like to hang around with Dustbin, Liang and claud. they are nice people and sincere friends(well, at least i think so--what other ppl think i hv no idea) I really hv alot of fun in cardiff previously, made me so happy and i would say, it is the happiest time since i came to UK.
Hope the London trip will be equally fun as well^^

I promised i will study hard dad, don't worry abt it, I am indeed lazy, but at least bottom line i wanna make u and mom proud. I duno abt other subjects, but I like Land Law alot, Will try to get a first class on the finals.

Relationship matters:
Have you ever think of someone so deep till you will smile on your own for whatever things he/she does? U know what, I Did! I am missing someone so much. but...what can I do :(


Current Emotion:
Tired, but there is some much to be done yet..slightly emo, missing someone, and HUNGRY!!

Last but not least, Congratulations to my housemate ,i thought he is only good in getting himself drunk, having sex with his gf and punching annoying looking chinese guy in the club. But who knows, he won the UK youngest creativity Engineering competition. I heard he invent quite a great piece of machine and even meet Prince Philips (brother of Prince Charles) and walk away with 1000 pounds. He told me he is not the overall champion and he is only the winner in one of the sections. Anyway, Way da go dude, U teached me 'Dont judge the book by its cover and also by which book store it is to be sold'..haha..

Time for dinner.. adios ;)

Divorce?

Been chatting with a friend of mine who is currently living in USA, she is 26 years old this year, and she told me that she is going to get a divorce with her husband (which is a USA citizen).
Well, I was shocked when I heard about it, because as far as I know, their cute little baby girl -Coey is just 1 or 2 years old.

While i thought i am having alot of problem, people around me are facing even crucial and serious problems. She wants to get a divorce because her husband didn't care abt her and the baby. He thinks they are a burden to his so called 'Life' . Well, I am a guy as well, but Hey, how can u say things like these. I mean whenever a couple reach the stage of marriage, every decision matters and u need to learn to let go of ur FUN life. I always thought that guy was a good guy, but from one side of the story, he seems like a total bad ass.

My friend was sad because even after divorce, she might not be able to care for baby Coey. Honestly she didnt have much of a strong family financial status, even she is the one who is paying for the house expenses of her parents who are living in Malaysia. She told me that she hv no other way than to pass the baby to her husband.(coz coey is a US citizen and not malaysia citizen as well)

Hope they will be fine. As a friend, couldnt really do much to help, but hey 'C' , will support u till the end. Just stay strong k?


As for me, didnt really progress much for today, been to morrison to get some grocery, cook Nasi Lemak today coz mario is going on a trip to London- Paris for a week. and Callum (uk housemate) is MISSING IN ACTION. haha..I tend to use that because didnt really see him alot in the house. You might have a higher % finding him in a Club rather than home. :) But he is a nice guy anyway.

Learned a sentence today which I love it very much " Applying a sence of touch through the medium of a clench fist' haha...dunno y, I just love the way it describe the way of applying force.

Final thing, I just cant seem to waive away an image that keep popping up in my mind...what can i do?

Its getting late though better get some sleep as tomorrow i will be getting my train ticket to LONDON!!! yes...to London again to join up with my buddies. To me London or not is not the main attraction, it is the time we hang out together laughing and crapping that usually leaves me wonderful memories. Too bad 3310 is not going to be there, if not things will be perfect. But Hey, life is not all abt women right? (Ok ..slightly a little) haha :)

Good night all.

Weekend again :) wee

Friday seems to be a happy day as usual (after all classes). Coz i will have Saturday, Sunday, Monday --3 days rest --or should i say--self study time coz finals are just around the corner.

Noticing people around starting to get nervous, the conversation abt 'Finals' are getting hotter by days. True enough, let me count..erm..10 more weeks to exams, pheww, not even 3 months, and things are still undone, topics not revised yet, and other bad stuff... :)

Actually i've been starting my Finals 'Constructions' since last week, but progress seems to be rather slow. Sleeping still seems to be the main priority though. Seriously friends in Malaysia--Sleeping in UK --SHUANG AR!! hahaha..

Won't be cooking tonight, Mario's birthday today--going out for Nando's --sry dad, Implied Necessity(my opinion)-- but ..mario rather expressly stated it 3 days before...and i guess some good food tonight wont hurt that much.

Speaking of the topic -Procrastination (saw cindy wrote abt it in her blog) ..I brave myself up and admit---actually I am kinda good at it as well..Imagine i can spend 6 to 7 hours on a piece of essay( not that it is perfect--but in the middle of the work i can go for tea break--milo or tea) facebooking( as alot ppl do), movie-ing , chatting, sleeping, dreaming, sms-ing, and other bad stuff as well. :) gee..I might get a PHD if there is a subject for that to take in University.

Heard dustbin and brother liang wont be going to Amsterdam during the Easter Break-- Invite me together k if u guys are planning to go somewhere..^^

Thats all for now, gotta do some study now before spending the whole night out again..加油了，我行的！！！！

Problem Solved???

As some of my friends know, today I rang up my girlfriend back in Malaysia to discuss our relationship(intially i planned to get a break up), well, things rather happened beyond my expectation and so--we are together again.


Might not want to comment too much abt that but the only thing i can do/ should do now is to fix our broken relationship back. It is like fixing a puzzle back to its original form, with pieces scattered all around the floor, might took some time, but I hope I can manage it through.


The only thing I hv some regret..well..some indeed, is abt 3310(a code) .I really cant stop thinking abt that but somehow situations didnt allowed me to do so anymore.


Hope I did make the right decision today, at least I save her tears from rolling down between her cute pair of eyes. Thats something I am proud of. Can never let a women cry --thats one of the life principle I tend to hold on in my life.


At least I can focus on my studies now, exam is just around the corner..must do more work. Havent really download the notes Claudia borrowed me from her acct. Thanks Claudia (ur the best!!!) ...


Time to move on..thanks to people that haven given me advice and opinion when i needed them the most, u guys are the best--will never forget that. Hugss.


LETS GET THE ENGINE ROLLING!!!!! woohoooo

Problems Problems and Problems

Recently I been using my brain alot (of course not for homework) rather more on relationships.

Sorry I couldnt list down things in detail because once the problem is not resolve yet it is better not to write crucial opinions on it.

I thought discussing the issue might result in a better way of solution but too bad things went out of hand and now I am given a few days to give an answer on it. End up receiving more preassure than ever.

Been skyping with my family yesterday, as usual : "Chris, must study hard k? daddy already invest so much money for you to study, U need to know ur AIM, whats ur aim? The law degree..yes, sit down, do ur best and get what needs to be done"

Well thats my lovely old dad, ^^ he is a man with power, and because of his previous experience and long time businessman, everything is abt END RESULT(Study) / profit (for business). I like that thinking actually, straight forward enough, no turning around. Thats what a businessman should be. Employer gives a task, by hook or crook the employee need to get it done. That is life, that is reality.

But somehow the process of getting the degree is not that simple. I might not be a smart kid like my buddy bin hau, or as hardworking as sheah liang or Kho.. So to get the same or possibly nearest outcome, I need to put in double, or maybe triple of the effort to get things done. And sometimes---Yes , I am lazy :( Argg, must get things done somehow, i duwanna repeat my mistakes.

Last thing, have u guys ever believe in Love at first sight? I am still wondering whether it is true.

Just a clause I am thinking recently (readers might not know what the real meaning is) -- Craving In Night Dreaming of You